"Barn Burning" by William Faulkner
The store in which the Justice of the Peace's court
was sitting smelled of cheese. The boy, crouched on his nail keg at the back of the crowded room, knew he smelled cheese,
and more: from where he sat he could see the ranked shelves close-packed with the solid, squat, dynamic shapes of tin cans
whose labels his stomach read, not from the lettering which meant nothing to his mind but from the scarlet devils and the
silver curve of fish - this, the cheese which he knew he smelled and the hermetic meat which his intestines believed he smelled
coming in intermittent gusts momentary and brief between the other constant one, the smell and sense just a little of fear
because mostly of despair and grief, the old fierce pull of blood. He could not see the table where the Justice sat and before
which his father and his father's enemy (our enemy he thought in that despair; ourn! mine and hisn both! He's
my father!) stood, but he could hear them, the two of them that is, because his father had said no word yet:
"But what proof have you, Mr. Harris?"
"I told you. The hog got into my corn. I caught
it up and sent it back to him. He had no fence that would hold it. I told him so, warned him. The next time I put the hog
in my pen. When he came to get it I gave him enough wire to patch up his pen. The next time I put the hog up and kept it.
I rode down to his house and saw the wire I gave him still rolled on to the spool in his yard. I told him he could have the
hog when he paid me a dollar pound fee. That evening a n*gger came with the dollar and got the hog. He was a strange n*gger.
He said, 'He say to tell you wood and hay kin burn.' I said, 'What?' 'That whut he say to tell you,' the n*gger said. 'Wood
and hay kin burn.' That night my barn burned. I got the stock out but I lost the barn."
"Where is the n*gger? Have you got him?"
"He was a strange n*gger, I tell you. I don't know
what became of him."
"But that's not proof. Don't you see that's not
proof?"
"Get that boy up here. He knows." For a moment
the boy thought too that the man meant his older brother until Harris said, "Not him. The little one. The boy," and, crouching,
small for his age, small and wiry like his father, in patched and faded jeans even too small for him, with straight, uncombed,
brown hair and eyes gray and wild as storm scud, he saw the men between himself and the table part and become a lane of grim
faces, at the end of which he saw the justice, a shabby, collarless, graying man in spectacles, beckoning him. He felt no
floor under his bare feet; he seemed to walk beneath the palpable weight of the grim turning faces. His father, stiff in his
black Sunday coat donned not for the trial but for the moving, did not even look at him. He aims for me to lie, he
thought, again with that frantic grief and despair. And I will have to do hit.
"What's your name, boy?" the justice said.
"Colonel Sartoris Snopes," the boy whispered.
"Hey?" the Justice said. "Talk louder. Colonel
Sartoris? I reckon anybody named for Colonel Sartoris in this country can't help but tell the truth, can they?" The boy said
nothing. Enemy! Enemy! he thought; for a moment he could not even see, could not see that the justice's face was
kindly nor discern that his voice was troubled when he spoke to the man named Harris: "Do you want me to question this boy?"
But he could hear, and during those subsequent long seconds while there was absolutely no sound in the crowded little room
save that of quiet and intent breathing it was as if he had swung outward at the end of a grape vine, over a ravine, and at
the top of the swing had been caught in a prolonged instant of mesmerized gravity, weightless in time.
"No!" Harris said violently, explosively. "Damnation!
Send him out of here!" Now time, the fluid world, rushed beneath him again, the voices coming to him again through the smell
of cheese and sealed meat, the fear and despair and the old grief of blood:
"This case is closed. I can't find against you,
Snopes, but I can give you advice. Leave this country and don't come back to it."
His father spoke for the first time, his voice
cold and harsh, level, without emphasis: "I aim to. I don't figure to stay in a country among people who" he said something
unprintable and vile, addressed to no one.
"That'll do," the Justice said. "Take your wagon
and get out of this country before dark. Case dismissed."
His father turned, and he followed the stiff black
coat, the wiry figure walking a little stiffly from where a Confederate provost's man's musket ball had taken him in the heel
on a stolen horse thirty years ago, followed the two backs now, since between the two lines of grim-faced men and out of the
store and across the worn gallery and down the sagging steps and among the dogs and half-grown boys in the mild May dust,
where as he passed a voice hissed:
"Barn burner!"
Again he could not see, whirling; there was a face
in a red haze, moonlike, bigger than the full moon, the owner of it half again his size, he leaping in the red haze toward
the face, feeling no blow, feeling no shock when his head struck the earth, scrabbling up and leaping again, feeling no blow
this time either and tasting no blood, scrabbling up to see the other boy in full flight and himself already leaping into
pursuit as his father's hand jerked him back, the harsh, cold voice speaking above him: "Go get in the wagon."
It stood in a grove of locusts and mulberries across
the road. His two hulking sisters in their Sunday dresses and his mother and her sister in calico and sunbonnets were already
in it, sitting on and among the sorry residue of the dozen and more movings which even the boy could remember the battered
stove, the broken beds and chairs, the clock inlaid with mother-of-pearl, which would not run, stopped at some fourteen minutes
past two o'clock of a dead and forgotten day and time, which had been his mother's dowry. She was crying, though when she
saw him she drew her sleeve across her face and began to descend from the wagon. "Get back," the father said.
"He's hurt. I got to get some water and wash his"
His older brother had appeared from somewhere in
the crowd, no taller than the father but thicker, chewing tobacco steadily,
"Get back in the wagon," his father said. He got
in too, over the tail-gate. His father mounted to the seat where the older brother already sat and struck the gaunt mules
two savage blows with the peeled willow, but without heat. It was not even sadistic; it was exactly that same quality which
in later years would cause his descendants to over-run the engine before putting a motor car into motion, striking and reining
back in the same movement. The wagon went on, the store with its quiet crowd of grimly watching men dropped behind; a curve
in the road hid it. Forever he thought. Maybe he's done satisfied now, now that he has ... stopping himself, not to say it
aloud even to himself. His mother's hand touched his shoulder.
"Does hit hurt?" she said.
"Naw," he said. "Hit don't hurt. Lemme be."
"Can't you wipe some of the blood off before hit
dries?"
"I'll wash to-night," he said. "Lemme be, I tell
you."
The wagon went on. He did not know where they were
going. None of them ever did or ever asked, because it was always somewhere, always a house of sorts waiting for them a day
or two days or even three days away. Likely his father had already arranged to make a crop on another farm before he... Again
he had to stop himself. He (the father) always did. There was something about his wolflike independence and even courage when
the advantage was at least neutral which impressed strangers, as if they got from his latent ravening ferocity not so much
a sense of dependability as a feeling that his ferocious conviction in the rightness of his own actions would be of advantage
to all whose interest lay with his.
That night they camped in a grove of oaks and beeches
where a spring ran. The nights were still cool and they had a fire against it, of a rail lifted from a nearby fence and cut
into lengths - a small fire, neat, niggard almost, a shrewd fire; such fires were his father's habit and custom always, even
in freezing weather. Older, the boy might have remarked this and wondered why not a big one; why should not a man who had
not only seen the waste and extravagance of war, but who had in his blood an inherent voracious prodigality with material
not his own, have burned everything in sight? Then he might have gone a step farther and thought that that was the reason:
that niggard blaze was the living fruit of nights passed during those four years in the woods hiding from all men, blue or
gray, with his strings of horses (captured horses, he called them). And older still, he might have divined the true reason:
that the element of fire spoke to some deep mainspring of his father's being, as the element of steel or of powder spoke to
other men, as the one weapon for the preservation of integrity, else breath were not worth the breathing, and hence to be
regarded with respect and used with discretion.
But he did not think this now and he had seen those
same niggard blazes all his life. He merely ate his supper beside it and was already half asleep over his iron plate when
his father called him, and once more he followed the stiff back, the stiff and ruthless limp, up the slope and on to the starlit
road where, turning, he could see his father against the stars but without face or depth-a shape black, flat, and bloodless
as though cut from tin in the iron folds of the frockcoat which had not been made for him, the voice harsh like tin and without
heat like tin:
"You were fixing to tell them. You would have told
him." He didn't answer. His father struck him with the flat of his hand on the side of the head, hard but without heat, exactly
as he had struck the two mules at the store, exactly as he would strike either of them with any stick in order to kill a horse
fly, his voice still without heat or anger: "You're getting to be a man. You got to learn. You got to learn to stick to your
own blood or you ain't going to have any blood to stick to you. Do you think either of them, any man there this morning would?
Don't you know all they wanted was a chance to get at me because they knew I had them beat? Eh?" Later, twenty years later,
he was to tell himself, "If I had said they wanted only truth, justice, he would have hit me again."But now he said nothing.
He was not crying. He just stood there. "Answer me," his father said.
"Yes," he whispered. His father turned.
"Get on to bed. We'll be there to-morrow."
To-morrow they were there. In the early afternoon
the wagon stopped before a paintless two-room house identical almost with the dozen others it had stopped before even in the
boy's ten years, and again, as on the other dozen occasions, his mother and aunt got down and began to unload the wagon, although
his two sisters and his father and brother had not moved.
"Likely hit ain't fitten for hawgs," one of the
sisters said.
"Nevertheless, fit it will and you'll hog it and
like it," his father said. "Get out of them chairs and help your Ma unload."
The two sisters got down, big, bovine, in a flutter
of cheap ribbons; one of them drew from the jumbled wagon bed a battered lantern, the other a worn broom. His father handed
the reins to the older son and began to climb stiffly over the wheel. "When they get unloaded, take the team to the barn and
feed them." Then he said, and at first the boy thought he was still speaking to his brother: "Come with me."
"Me?" he said.
"Yes," his father said. "You."
"Abner," his mother said. His father paused and
looked back - the harsh level stare beneath the shaggy, graying, irascible brows.
"I reckon I'll have a word with the man that aims
to begin to-morrow owning me body and soul for the next eight months."
They went back up the road. A week ago - or before
last night, that is - he would have asked where they were going, but not now. His father had struck him before last night
but never before had he paused afterward to explain why; it was as if the blow and the following calm, outrageous voice still
rang, repercussed, divulging nothing to him save the terrible handicap of being young, the light weight of his few years,
just heavy enough to prevent his soaring free of the world as it seemed to be ordered but not heavy enough to keep him footed
solid in it, to resist it and try to change the course of its events.
Presently he could see the grove of oaks and cedars
and the other flowering trees and shrubs where the house would be, though not the house yet. They walked beside a fence massed
with honeysuckle and Cherokee roses and came to a gate swinging open between two brick pillars, and now, beyond a sweep of
drive, he saw the house for the first time and at that instant he forgot his father and the terror and despair both, and even
when he remembered his father again (who had not stopped) the terror and despair did not return. Because, for all the twelve
movings, they had sojourned until now in a poor country, a land of small farms and fields and houses, and he had never seen
a house like this before. Hit's big as a courthouse he thought quietly, with a surge of peace and joy whose reason he could
not have thought into words, being too young for that: They are safe from him. People whose lives are a part of this peace
and dignity are beyond his touch, he no more to them than a buzzing wasp: capable of stinging for a little moment but that's
all; the spell of this peace and dignity rendering even the barns and stable and cribs which belong to it impervious to the
puny flames he might contrive ... this, the peace and joy, ebbing for an instant as he looked again at the stiff black back,
the stiff and implacable limp of the figure which was not dwarfed by the house, for the reason that it had never looked big
anywhere and which now, against the serene columned backdrop, had more than ever that impervious quality of something cut
ruthlessly from tin, depthless, as though, sidewise to the sun, it would cast no shadow. Watching him, the boy remarked the
absolutely undeviating course which his father held and saw the stiff foot come squarely down in a pile of fresh droppings
where a horse had stood in the drive and which his father could have avoided by a simple change of stride. But it ebbed only
for a moment, though he could not have thought this into words either, walking on in the spell of the house, which he could
even want but without envy, without sorrow, certainly never with that ravening and jealous rage which unknown to him walked
in the ironlike black coat before him. Maybe he will feel it too. Maybe it will even change him now from what maybe he couldn't
help but be.
They crossed the portico. Now he could hear his
father's stiff foot as it came down on the boards with clocklike finality, a sound out of all proportion to the displacement
of the body it bore and which was not dwarfed either by the white door before it, as though it had attained to a sort of vicious
and ravening minimum not to be dwarfed by anything - the flat, wide, black hat, the formal coat of broadcloth which had once
been black but which had now the friction-glazed greenish cast of the bodies of old house flies, the lifted sleeve which was
too large, the lifted hand like a curled claw. The door opened so promptly that the boy knew the Negro must have been watching
them all the time, an old man with neat grizzled hair, in a linen jacket, who stood barring the door with his body, saying,
"Wipe yo foots, white man, fo you come in here. Major ain't home nohow."
"Get out of my way, n*gger," his father said, without
heat too, flinging the door back and the Negro also and entering, his hat still on his head. And now the boy saw the prints
of the stiff foot on the doorjamb and saw them appear on the pale rug behind the machinelike deliberation of the foot which
seemed to bear (or transmit) twice the weight which the body compassed. The Negro was shouting "Miss Lula! Miss Lula!" somewhere
behind them, then the boy, deluged as though by a warm wave by a suave turn of carpeted stair and a pendant glitter of chandeliers
and a mute gleam of gold frames, heard the swift feet and saw her too, a lady - perhaps he had never seen her like before
either - in a gray, smooth gown with lace at the throat and an apron tied at the waist and the sleeves turned back, wiping
cake or biscuit dough from her hands with a towel as she came up the hall, looking not at his father at all but at the tracks
on the blond rug with an expression of incredulous amazement.
"I tried," the Negro cried. "I tole him to"
"Will you please go away?" she said in a shaking
voice. "Major de Spain is not at home. Will you please go away?"
His father had not spoken again. He did not speak
again. He did not even look at her. He just stood stiff in the center of the rug, in his hat, the shaggy iron-gray brows twitching
slightly above the pebble-colored eyes as he appeared to examine the house with brief deliberation. Then with the same deliberation
he turned; the boy watched him pivot on the good leg and saw the stiff foot drag round the arc of the turning, leaving a final
long and fading smear. His father never looked at it, he never once looked down at the rug. The Negro held the door. It closed
behind them, upon the hysteric and indistinguishable woman-wail. His father stopped at the top of the steps and scraped his
boot clean on the edge of it. At the gate he stopped again. He stood for a moment, planted stiffly on the stiff foot, looking
back at the house. "Pretty and white, ain't it?" he said. "That's sweat. N*gger sweat. Maybe it ain't white enough yet to
suit him. Maybe he wants to mix some white sweat with it."
Two hours later the boy was chopping wood behind
the house within which his mother and aunt and the two sisters (the mother and aunt, not the two girls, he knew that; even
at this distance and muffled by walls the flat loud voices of the two girls emanated an incorrigible idle inertia) were setting
up the stove to prepare a meal, when he heard the hooves and saw the linen-clad man on a fine sorrel mare, whom he recognized
even before he saw the rolled rug in front of the Negro youth following on a fat bay carriage horse - a suffused, angry face
vanishing, still at full gallop, beyond the corner of the house where his father and brother were sitting in the two tilted
chairs; and a moment later, almost before he could have put the axe down, he heard the hooves again and watched the sorrel
mare go back out of the yard, already galloping again.
Then his father began to shout one of the sisters'
names, who presently emerged backward from the kitchen door dragging the rolled rug along the ground by one end while the
other sister walked behind it.
"If you ain't going to tote, go on and set up the
wash pot," the first said.
"You, Sarty!" the second shouted, "Set up the wash
pot!" His father appeared at the door, framed against that shabbiness, as he had been against that other bland perfection,
impervious to either, the mother's anxious face at his shoulder.
"Go on," the father said. "Pick it up." The two
sisters stooped, broad, lethargic; stooping, they presented an incredible expanse of pale cloth and a flutter of tawdry ribbons.
"If I thought enough of a rug to have to git hit
all the way from France I wouldn't keep hit where folks coming in would have to tromp on hit," the first said. They raised
the rug.
"Abner," the mother said. "Let me do it."
"You go back and git dinner," his father said.
"I'll tend to this."
From the woodpile through the rest of the afternoon
the boy watched them, the rug spread flat in the dust beside the bubbling wash-pot, the two sisters stooping over it with
that profound and lethargic reluctance, while the father stood over them in turn, implacable and grim, driving them though
never raising his voice again. He could smell the harsh homemade lye they were using; he saw his mother come to the door once
and look toward them with an expression not anxious now but very like despair; he saw his father turn, and he fell to with
the axe and saw from the corner of his eye his father raise from the ground a flattish fragment of field stone and examine
it and return to the pot, and this time his mother actually spoke: "Abner. Abner. Please don't. Please, Abner."
Then he was done too. It was dusk; the whippoorwills
had already begun. He could smell coffee from the room where they would presently eat the cold food remaining from the mid-afternoon
meal, though when he entered the house he realized they were having coffee again probably because there was a fire on the
hearth, before which the rug now lay spread over the backs of the two chairs. The tracks of his father's foot were gone. Where
they had been were now long, water-cloudy scoriations resembling the sporadic course of a lilliputian mowing machine.
It still hung there while they ate the cold food
and then went to bed, scattered without order or claim up and down the two rooms, his mother in one bed, where his father
would later lie, the older brother in the other, himself, the aunt, and the two sisters on pallets on the floor. But his father
was not in bed yet. The last thing the boy remembered was the depthless, harsh silhouette of the hat and coat bending over
the rug and it seemed to him that he had not even closed his eyes when the silhouette was standing over him, the fire almost
dead behind it, the stiff foot prodding him awake. "Catch up the mule," his father said.
When he returned with the mule his father was standing
in the black door, the rolled rug over his shoulder. "Ain't you going to ride?" he said.
"No. Give me your foot."
He bent his knee into his father's hand, the wiry,
surprising power flowed smoothly, rising, he rising with it, on to the mule's bare back (they had owned a saddle once; the
boy could remember it though not when or where) and with the same effortlessness his father swung the rug up in front of him.
Now in the starlight they retraced the afternoon's path, up the dusty road rife with honeysuckle, through the gate and up
the black tunnel of the drive to the lightless house, where he sat on the mule and felt the rough warp of the rug drag across
his thighs and vanish.
"Don't you want me to help?" he whispered. His
father did not answer and now he heard again that stiff foot striking the hollow portico with that wooden and clocklike deliberation,
that outrageous overstatement of the weight it carried. The rug, hunched, not flung (the boy could tell that even in the darkness)
from his father's shoulder struck the angle of wall and floor with a sound unbelievably loud, thunderous, then the foot again,
unhurried and enormous; a light came on in the house and the boy sat, tense, breathing steadily and quietly and just a little
fast, though the foot itself did not increase its beat at all, descending the steps now; now the boy could see him.
"Don't you want to ride now?" he whispered. "We
kin both ride now," the light within the house altering now, flaring up and sinking, He's coming down the stairs now, he thought.
He had already ridden the mule up beside the horse block; presently his father was up behind him and he doubled the reins
over and slashed the mule across the neck, but before the animal could begin to trot the hard, thin arm came round him, the
hard, knotted hand jerking the mule back to a walk.
In the first red rays of the sun they were in the
lot, putting plow gear on the mules. This time the sorrel mare was in the lot before he heard it at all, the rider collarless
and even bareheaded, trembling, speaking in a shaking voice as the woman in the house had done, his father merely looking
up once before stooping again to the hame he was buckling, so that the man on the mare spoke to his stooping back:
"You must realize you have ruined that rug. Wasn't
there anybody here, any of your women" he ceased, shaking, the boy watching him, the older brother leaning now in the stable
door, chewing, blinking slowly and steadily at nothing apparently. "It cost a hundred dollars. But you never had a hundred
dollars. You never will. So I'm going to charge you twenty bushels of corn against your crop. I'll add it in your contract
and when you come to the commissary you can sign it. That won't keep Mrs. de Spain quiet but maybe it will teach you to wipe
your feet off before you enter her house again."
Then he was gone. The boy looked at his father,
who still had not spoken or even looked up again, who was now adjusting the logger-head in the hame.
"Pap," he said. His father looked at him - the
inscrutable face, the shaggy brows beneath which the gray eyes glinted coldly. Suddenly the boy went toward him, fast, stopping
as suddenly. "You done the best you could!" he cried. "If he wanted hit done different why didn't he wait and tell you how?
He won't git no twenty bushels! He won't git none! We'll gether hit and hide hit! I kin watch"
"Did you put the cutter back in that straight stock
like I told you?"
"No sir," he said.
"Then go do it."
That was Wednesday. During the rest of that week
he worked steadily, at what was within his scope and some which was beyond it, with an industry that did not need to be driven
nor even commanded twice; he had this from his mother, with the difference that some at least of what he did he liked to do,
such as splitting wood with the half-size axe which his mother and aunt had earned, or saved money somehow, to present him
with at Christmas. In company with the two older women (and on one afternoon, even one of the sisters), he built pens for
the shoat and the cow which were a part of his father's contract with the landlord, and one afternoon, his father being absent,
gone somewhere on one of the mules, he went to the field,
They were running a middle buster now, his brother
holding the plow straight while he handled the reins, and walking beside the straining mule, the rich black soil shearing
cool and damp against his bare ankles, he thought Maybe this is the end of it. Maybe even that twenty bushels that seems hard
to have to pay for just a rug will be a cheap price for him to stop forever and always from being what he used to be; thinking,
dreaming now, so that his brother had to speak sharply to him to mind the mule: Maybe he even won't collect the twenty bushels.
Maybe it will all add up and balance and vanish - corn, rug, fire; the terror and grief, the being pulled two ways like between
two teams of horses - gone, done with for ever and ever.
Then it was Saturday; he looked up from beneath
the mule he was harnessing and saw his father in the black coat and hat. "Not that," his father said. "The wagon gear." And
then, two hours later, sitting in the wagon bed behind his father and brother on the seat, the wagon accomplished a final
curve, and he saw the weathered paintless store with its tattered tobacco and patent-medicine posters and the tethered wagons
and saddle animals below the gallery. He mounted the gnawed steps behind his father and brother, and there again was the lane
of quiet, watching faces for the three of them to walk through. He saw the man in spectacles sitting at the plank table and
he did not need to be told this was a Justice of the Peace; he sent one glare of fierce, exultant, partisan defiance at the
man in collar and cravat now, whom he had seen but twice before in his life, and that on a galloping horse, who now wore on
his face an expression not of rage but of amazed unbelief which the boy could not have known was at the incredible circumstance
of being sued by one of his own tenants, and came and stood against his father and cried at the justice: "He ain't done it!
He ain't burnt"
"Go back to the wagon," his father said.
"Burnt?" the Justice said. "Do I understand this
rug was burned too?"
"Does anybody here claim it was?" his father said.
"Go back to the wagon." But he did not, he merely retreated to the rear of the room, crowded as that other had been, but not
to sit down this time, instead, to stand pressing among the motionless bodies, listening to the voices:
"And you claim twenty bushels of corn is too high
for the damage you did to the rug?"
"He brought the rug to me and said he wanted the
tracks washed out of it. I washed the tracks out and took the rug back to him."
"But you didn't carry the rug back to him in the
same condition it was in before you made the tracks on it."
His father did not answer, and now for perhaps
half a minute there was no sound at all save that of breathing, the faint, steady suspiration of complete and intent listening.
"You decline to answer that, Mr. Snopes?" Again
his father did not answer. "I'm going to find against you, Mr. Snopes, I'm going to find that you were responsible for the
injury to Major de Spain's rug and hold you liable for it. But twenty bushels of corn seems a little high for a man in your
circumstances to have to pay. Major de Spain claims it cost a hundred dollars. October corn will be worth about fifty cents.
I figure that if Major de Spain can stand a ninety-five dollar loss on something he paid cash for, you can stand a five-dollar
loss you haven't earned yet. I hold you in damages to Major de Spain to the amount of ten bushels of corn over and above your
contract with him, to be paid to him out of your crop at gathering time. Court adjourned."
It had taken no time hardly, the morning was but
half begun. He thought they would return home and perhaps back to the field, since they were late, far behind all other farmers.
But instead his father passed on behind the wagon, merely indicating with his hand for the older brother to follow with it,
and he crossed the road toward the blacksmith shop opposite, pressing on after his father, overtaking him, speaking, whispering
up at the harsh, calm face beneath the weathered hat: "He won't git no ten bushels neither. He won't git one. We'll" until
his father glanced for an instant down at him, the face absolutely calm, the grizzled eyebrows tangled above the cold eyes,
the voice almost pleasant, almost gentle:
"You think so? Well, we'll wait till October anyway."
The matter of the wagon - the setting of a spoke
or two and the tightening of the tires - did not take long either, the business of the tires accomplished by driving the wagon
into the spring branch behind the shop and letting it stand there, the mules nuzzling into the water from time to time, and
the boy on the seat with the idle reins, looking up the slope and through the sooty tunnel of the shed where the slow hammer
rang and where his father sat on an upended cypress bolt, easily, either talking or listening, still sitting there when the
boy brought the dripping wagon up out of the branch and halted it before the door.
"Take them on to the shade and hitch," his father
said. He did so and returned. His father and the smith and a third man squatting on his heels inside the door were talking,
about crops and animals; the boy, squatting too in the ammoniac dust and hoof-parings and scales of rust, heard his father
tell a long and unhurried story out of the time before the birth of the older brother even when he had been a professional
horsetrader. And then his father came up beside him where he stood before a tattered last year's circus poster on the other
side of the store, gazing rapt and quiet at the scarlet horses, the incredible poisings and convolutions of tulle and tights
and the painted leer of comedians, and said, "It's time to eat."
But not at home. Squatting beside his brother against
the front wall, he watched his father emerge from the store and produce from a paper sack a segment of cheese and divide it
carefully and deliberately into three with his pocket knife and produce crackers from the same sack. They all three squatted
on the gallery and ate, slowly, without talking; then in the store again, they drank from a tin dipper tepid water smelling
of the cedar bucket and of living beech trees. And still they did not go home. It was a horse lot this time, a tall rail fence
upon and along which men stood and sat and out of which one by one horses were led, to be walked and trotted and then cantered
back and forth along the road while the slow swapping and buying went on and the sun began to slant westward, they - the three
of them - watching and listening, the older brother with his muddy eyes and his steady, inevitable tobacco, the father commenting
now and then on certain of the animals, to no one in particular.
It was after sundown when they reached home. They
ate supper by lamplight, then, sitting on the doorstep, the boy watched the night fully accomplished, listening to the whippoorwills
and the frogs, when he heard his mother's voice: "Abner! No! No! Oh, God. Oh, God. Abner!" and he rose, whirled, and saw the
altered light through the door where a candle stub now burned in a bottle neck on the table and his father, still in the hat
and coat, at once formal and burlesque as though dressed carefully for some shabby and ceremonial violence, emptying the reservoir
of the lamp back into the five-gallon kerosene can from which it had been filled, while the mother tugged at his arm until
he shifted the lamp to the other hand and flung her back, not savagely or viciously, just hard, into the wall, her hands flung
out against the wall for balance, her mouth open and in her face the same quality of hopeless despair as had been in her voice.
Then his father saw him standing in the door.
"Go to the barn and get that can of oil we were
oiling the wagon with," he said. The boy did not move. Then he could speak.
"What" he cried "What are you"
"Go get that oil," his father said. "Go."
Then he was moving, running outside the house,
toward the stable: this the old habit, the old blood which he had not been permitted to choose for himself, which had been
bequeathed him willy nilly and which had run for so long (and who knew where, battening on what of outrage and savagery and
lust) before it came to him. I could keep on, he thought. I could run on and on and never look back, never need to see his
face again. Only I can't. I can't, the rusted can in his hand now, the liquid sploshing in it as he ran back to the house
and into it, into the sound of his mother's weeping in the next room, and handed the can to his father.
"Ain't you going to even send a n*gger?" he cried.
"At least you sent a n*gger before!"
This time his father didn't strike him. The hand
came even faster than the blow had, the same hand which had set the can on the table with almost excruciating care flashing
from the can toward him too quick for him to follow it, gripping him by the back of the shirt and on to tiptoe before he had
seen it quit the can, the face stooping at him in breathless and frozen ferocity, the cold, dead voice speaking over him to
the older brother who leaned against the table, chewing with that steady, curious, sidewise motion of cows:
"Empty the can into the big one and go on. I'll
ketch up with you."
"Better tie him to the bedpost," the brother said.
"Do like I told you," the father said. Then the
boy was moving, his bunched shirt and the hard, bony hand between his shoulder-blades, his toes just touching the floor, across
the room and into the other one, past the sisters sitting with spread heavy thighs in the two chairs over the cold hearth,
and to where his mother and aunt sat side by side on the bed, the aunt's arms about his mother's shoulders.
"Hold him," the father said. The aunt made a startled
movement. "Not you," the father said. "Lennie. Take hold of him. I want to see you do it." His mother took him by the wrist.
"You'll hold him better than that. If he gets loose don't you know what he is going to do?
He will go up yonder." He jerked his head toward
the road. "Maybe I'd better tie him."
"I'll hold him," his mother whispered.
"See you do then." Then his father was gone, the
stiff foot heavy and measured upon the boards, ceasing at last.
Then he began to struggle. His mother caught him
in both arms, he jerking and wrenching at them. He would be stronger in the end, he knew that. But he had no time to wait
for it. "Lemme go!" he cried. "I don't want to have to hit you!"
"Let him go!" the aunt said. "If he don't go, before
God, I am going up there myself!"
"Don't you see I can't?" his mother cried. "Sarty!
Sarty! No! No! Help me, Lizzie!"
Then he was free. His aunt grasped at him but was
too late. He whirled, running, his mother stumbled forward on to her knees behind him, crying to the nearer sister: "Catch
him, Net! Catch him!" But that was too late too, the sister (the sisters were twins, born at the same time, yet either of
them now gave the impression of being, encompassing as much living meat and volume and weight as any other two of the family)
not yet having begun to rise from the chair, her head, face, alone merely turned, presenting to him in the flying instant
an astonishing expanse of young female features untroubled by any surprise even, wearing only an expression of bovine interest.
Then he was out of the room, out of the house, in the mild dust of the starlit road and the heavy rifeness of honeysuckle,
the pale ribbon unspooling with terrific slowness under his running feet, reaching the gate at last and turning in, running,
his heart and lungs drumming, on up the drive toward the lighted house, the lighted door. He did not knock, he burst in, sobbing
for breath, incapable for the moment of speech; he saw the astonished face of the Negro in the linen jacket without knowing
when the Negro had appeared.
"De Spain!" he cried, panted. "Where's" then he
saw the white man too emerging from a white door down the hall. "Barn!" he cried. "Barn!"
"What?" the white man said. "Barn?"
"Yes!" the boy cried. "Barn!"
"Catch him!" the white man shouted.
But it was too late this time too. The Negro grasped
his shirt, but the entire sleeve, rotten with washing, carried away, and he was out that door too and in the drive again,
and had actually never ceased to run even while he was screaming into the white man's face.
Behind him the white man was shouting, "My horse!
Fetch my horse!" and he thought for an instant of cutting across the park and climbing the fence into the road, but he did
not know the park nor how high the vine-massed fence might be and he dared not risk it. So he ran on down the drive, blood
and breath roaring; presently he was in the road again though he could not see it. He could not hear either: the galloping
mare was almost upon him before he heard her, and even then he held his course, as if the urgency of his wild grief and need
must in a moment more find him wings, waiting until the ultimate instant to hurl himself aside and into the weed-choked roadside
ditch as the horse thundered past and on, for an instant in furious silhouette against the stars, the tranquil early summer
night sky which, even before the shape of the horse and rider vanished, strained abruptly and violently upward: a long, swirling
roar incredible and soundless, blotting the stars, and he springing up and into the road again, running again, knowing it
was too late yet still running even after he heard the shot and, an instant later, two shots, pausing now without knowing
he had ceased to run, crying "Pap! Pap!," running again before he knew he had begun to run, stumbling, tripping over something
and scrabbling up again without ceasing to run, looking backward over his shoulder at the glare as he got up, running on among
the invisible trees, panting, sobbing, "Father! Father!"
At midnight he was sitting on the crest of a hill.
He did not know it was midnight and he did not know how far he had come. But there was no glare behind him now and he sat
now, his back toward what he had called home for four days anyhow, his face toward the dark woods which he would enter when
breath was strong again, small, shaking steadily in the chill darkness, hugging himself into the remainder of his thin, rotten
shirt, the grief and despair now no longer terror and fear but just grief and despair. Father. My father, he thought. "He
was brave!" he cried suddenly, aloud but not loud, no more than a whisper: "He was! He was in the war! He was in Colonel Sartoris'
cav'ry!" not knowing that his father had gone to that war a private in the fine old European sense, wearing no uniform, admitting
the authority of and giving fidelity to no man or army or flag, going to war as Malbrouck himself did: for booty - it meant
nothing and less than nothing to him if it were enemy booty or his own.
The slow constellations wheeled on. It would be
dawn and then sun-up after a while and he would be hungry. But that would be to-morrow and now he was only cold, and walking
would cure that. His breathing was easier now and he decided to get up and go on, and then he found that he had been asleep
because he knew it was almost dawn, the night almost over. He could tell that from the whippoorwills. They were everywhere
now among the dark trees below him, constant and inflectioned and ceaseless, so that, as the instant for giving over to the
day birds drew nearer and nearer, there was no interval at all between them. He got up. He was a little stiff, but walking
would cure that too as it would the cold, and soon there would be the sun. He went on down the hill, toward the dark woods
within which the liquid silver voices of the birds called unceasing - the rapid and urgent beating of the urgent and quiring
heart of the late spring night. He did not look back.